Today is the Day

It's day 2 of transitioning Jared to bottle. It's definitely a better day than yesterday. I have been actually supplementing/having the bottle in addition to nursing. I've come to grips that he LOVES the bottle and that I don't have a big supply, so instead of going cold turkey, which is what I thought I'd be doing, I'm giving him what I've got then giving him the bottle. We'll see how long this lasts, especially when he knows the bottle will be coming. But it has definitely helped me feel somewhat useful in this department versus sobbing when I give him the bottle myself :) Regarding the neediness of this momma's boy, it warmed my heart when he woke up cranky from his nap and just wanted me to hold him. He stretches his arms over my shoulders and grabs my hair. He loves to play with it. If I turn him around to face out on my lap, he throws a fit. Much needed cuddles today. I was also able to lighten up a little bit in trying to convey to Lance how emotional the transition is for me right now. Definitely feeling the inadequecy. Things really turned around for me at church being able to talk to some ladies about it and getting some sympathy hugs. Thank you!

Last night while I was in the depths of this breastfeeding pit I was listening to the music for church since I hadn't gone to practice this week. It was just in the background while I was blogging and listening more for learning than worshiping. Practicing the music before service this morning was the beginning of a "lightening." While my down feelings on the situation were still present, I was able to step away from it for a little while and just worship and focus on God instead of myself. We did a couple songs that you've probably heard a million times, but really spoke to me. One was "Blessed Be the Lord God Almighty."

Father in heaven how we love you
We lift your name in all the earth.
May your kingdom be established in our praises,
As Your people declare your mighty works!
Blessed be the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come.
Blessed be the Lord God Almighty
Who reigns forevermore.

The other was "Today is the Day." For some reason when I would hear it on the radio it sounded a little corny to me. Much props to our worship team :)

I'm casting my cares aside
I'm leaving my past behind
I'm setting my heart and mind on You Jesus
I'm reaching my hand to Yours
Believing theres so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good
Is good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day

I needed this today.